Yes, as I’ve described before on here, I’m socially inept. I’m very shy and diffident, I am not the most trusting of people either, due to past events.
In the coffee shop today, while I was having lunch, were two people, a father and son from cricket circles who I know very well. I spotted them sitting in the corner of the shop, and I tried my best not to make eye contact with them. What was I doing? Why was I hiding? Stupid isn’t it?
I had a bus to catch to the gym, so before I left the shop, I wandered over to them and said hello. In fact the father struggled to remember who I was, which indicates the great impression I must have made on him!
We chatted about cricket for the next 10 minutes or so, no fuss, no bother. What was all that with the charade of keeping my head down, trying not to be noticed? As I say, nonsensical. The two people concerned are very nice people and it was good to catch up. Easy as that. Socially inept I may be, but this time I made the effort to go over and make small talk. I can do it, but am not very good at it. Maybe some more practice is needed, I don’t know.
Hiding round corners, keeping my head down, feeling embarrassed. This is part of my autism that I’ve had to deal with for a long time. But I overcame that today. What was all the fuss about?
Socially anxious, that’s me.
Allen Brooks xx